Grey's anatomy

I am always amazed at how things end up. The timeliness of things, like when you are listening to a song, and things around you seem to hit on the beat. Maybe this has never happened to you, but it happens to me.

I just recently watched Grey's anatomy two part episode, "six days." This is the episode in which George's father has surgery for cancer and then dies. I remember watching it when it aired and going to work the next day and discussing it with Sarah in the CIS office. She asked me what it was like to watch that episode going through what was going on in my own life. Now that I have revisited the episode it still maintains its relevance, maybe it even gains some. What shocked me was that I looked up when the episode aired, January 18, 2007. My father passed away January 25, 2007. I watched that episode the week before my dad died. It was like cosmic training for the situation I was going to live the following week. To be fair, there were striking differences between George's situation and my own, but the key points are there.

This is part of an entry from my pen and paper journal:

"Jan. 19, 2007 4:00pm

I have survived the worst Christmas break ever. I probably would've gone crazy had it not been for Marisa.

List of things that sucked over X-mas break:
-Dad has cancer and is really close to death
-Girl from high school part of murder/suicide
-Saddam Hussein hanged
-Broke up with Natalia

Dad has not gotten any better. It seems we take two or three steps back, then stand still for a couple of weeks, then take three more steps backward. As of two weeks ago he had lost more than 50 lbs. in two months. About once a month the hospice nurse tells me she doesn't know how much longer he has. It seems that every time I get [mentally] prepared for him to die he lives and every time I get used to the idea of my dad being alive the nurse tells me he could die any day. Its a freakin' yo-yo."

The rest of the entry goes on to talk about the rest of the stuff on that list. Most of which I don't feel comfortable posting here.

Ever since my father's death I have been far more sensitive to death in the news, in movies, or on television. Like just recently, Bernie Mac, Isaac Hays, what's that about? Not to mention the war in Iraq. The state of Texas just executed an illegal immigrant. These are the things I hear louder than everything else. The man who taught me sound design in college was just diagnosed with cancer.

You know what they say about life...no one gets out alive. Now that I have thoroughly depressed you here is a funny video.




Hope that helps!